I've been so bored for months. So much of my time wasted because I don't know what to do.

I know have done a few pictures over the months, but it's just a chore for me, I don't get anything out of it anymore.

I just want something to do, something that will get results. I'm a person who's not satisfied with being a follower. I want to be the creator of something that gains followers. A comic, animation series, videogame or even just a website.

I don't have the patience to do anything on my own, and I lack ideas anyways. My projects fail because either there's too much to do before seeing any results or I can't get ideas for the project.

When I'm able to organize something, there just aren't enough people with the talent who can help me, I always have to work alone. The work of five or six people placed onto me. I don't mean to sound egotistical, but I always feel I'm the only one who knows enough of what I'm working on and I can't trust other people with it, which is why it's difficult to pass work to other people even if I manage to get somebody to agree to help.

I still have an art trade to finish, I haven't forgotten and I won't forget. When I have the energy to get up and draw again I'll do it...